Christmas Party with the Family

I am sitting here, beside the large speakers of my aunt's house,Pretty's place to be specific.
i am listening to the jumbled music of David Cook's Always be my Baby and y8's game. We have just finished exchanging of gifts and i am quite happy coz i got a small handbag from my manito/manita, a cellphone pouch or whatever you call this from my kuya jimboy and a perfume from pretty. This is the happiest christmas i ever had. though the surrounding isnt as noisy and bright as before, it's worth it. i feel the essence of Christmas. I feel that Christmas is an event that should not be missed by the family. the spirit is always there when you are with the whole family. I tried not to think of being someone else but whatever i did, it's just so hard... so hard to leave this kind of family... with bond and memories....