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Whenever I see a blank page, my hands wont hesitate to push the keys. Just wanna say:

It's never been easy being with this.

I keep answering the same things. Whenever doubt hits your head, try to bump it on the wall. Why, with all the things that I've done, you still dont get what I really feel? Or try to understand it perhaps?

Look, if I dont love you, I wouldn't swalllow everything people pushes me to eat. I would never dare shut my mouth up whenever aunt tells me how disgusting and shameless I am. I am trying to take everything in, coz I believe in what you have said, that I would never be alone...not ever.

It's quite hard for me whenever you always ask if love fades, when it wont. PLEASE stop asking me the same question over and over again. It annoyes me a lot. 

But, somehow, I feel edgy about some things; that I should distance myself for a short time- just to indulge everything for awhile. Though I wont fall out of love, I need some time to indulge words that come inside my head. The first time in life that love blocks my way. Well, life's like this, I'm learning to follow.