I had to admit

Five things so I can be consistent:

First of all: I don’t have any motivations to write something about our tied-up article. It is probably because of what paolo shared to me: she has been a friend and I have been considering her as my sister. It really turns me down. It breaks my heart. But I have to move on. I can. I always can. It will be hard though. I have to like move away, isolate myself and forget everything she had said. She said she sympathized me but I don’t think she really does. After everything she had said? Ouch. Really, truly, and bloody hurts. Somebody inspire me now!

|I don’t want war or anything else. Never dreamed of it actually. I understand her. It was entirely my fault. I know. For me to use paolo was a stupid, crazy, selfish act. I paid the price. (What price?) But she shouldn’t have said she’s okay, that she forgave me and all. I thought she was really okay. But she was not. And cuz, maybe it’s time that I have to like really move away from you. (As if you care anyway :D) I don’t want both of your relationship to have an alga just because of me. But then again, IT WAS MY FAULT. PERIOD.|

Second of all: Just got scolded by my aunt coz she doesn’t want me to use the computer anymore. Her reason? She said I am not studying my lessons. I wonder why she’s not used to it. On the other hand, I feel sorry for her: she bought a power-slim or whatever it’s called that’s put around the belly like belt and then vibrates (and pretty noisy). And I laughed out loud after she complained that their air-conditioner won’t work. Karma?

Third of all: I am so fucked up! I hate my chef’s uniform. It’s so large. I look like a scarecrow! Plus the bulging-tummy tailor hasn’t stitched my black pants yet. 

Fourth of all: Cat2 is finally enrolled in LSU. She’s even my classmate in English2! AND PE2 for crying out loud!!! WTF is wrong with her. Ok fine. I need to go on…

Fifth of all: Ahm. I think now’s the time to reveal my hidden and undiscovered talents!

My only talents:

1. Making weird and funny faces in front of the 43-inch tall x 28-inch wide mirror inside my room;

2. Talking to my self whenever I’m alone;

3. I CAN OFTEN SMELL LIQUOR ANYWHERE;

3. I can drink 5 cups of coffee at once. Is that wrong?

  This is PAOLO raw and unedited, btw

haha sorry 'bout this cuz. juz wanna have some fun :p peace!! 
photo by knowbee

More talents hereon

4. I know I am not handsome. I know I am skinny. I know. I know. I know that I am the worst person on earth. But why are gays still attracted to me? Another gay classmate is clinging. I cant stop them, fuck why. *goosebumps* Paolo is the only one am compatible going out with and he’s not even that gay;

5. I…I have this weird feeling that sex is fucking me off. It has no relevance for me any more. It’s like I’m doing it for an intense, extreme pleasure and nothing else… what else is it for btw? and lordy dog-style is the most pleasurable position I tell you.